Today, I had to stay home with the flu.

My kitchen is such a mess I'm embarrassed. I make myself get up off the couch to do dishes. Listening to Christmas music to inspire me, I can't help but know how blessed I am. Yet, I am also sad thinking about my own grandparents and ALL those who loved me, happy to have such beautiful memories to fall back on.

I remember the first Christmas I did not go home and it still saddens me to think of it, but I was trying to grow up. Make my own way and find my way and value in life.

I'm missing my Hailey Jo. She is such a beautiful person and will find what she is looking for. Both girls are going through life's challenges and opportunities and I am so excited for them to find success and peace. It is contained within.

Merry Christmas everyone!